Updates =/

Well, this month and most of last month was rather shitty. Joe left for camp for two weeks and he came back a total asshole, now we we're fighting alot =/. My best friend, Austin moved to Dubai ( I miss you soo much T.T ) and I have to deal with all the other idiots in the group without backup. . .>_>. Speaking of the group, it's falling apart completly now that Austin's gone.

Joe decided he wants to pursue "being popular" again which is fucking stupid because they ditched him and he said before that he didn't care about all that anymore, he also said that he refuses to cosplay, go to any anime events with me and I feel like he's being cocky and just saying things to piss me off. .. .like the other day, he told me he didn't want me to hang out with one of my best friends when we start highschool because she's very "touchy feely" and he doesn't like it when other people touch me. . . quite frankly, that's not a good reason to tell me to stay away from my best friend that I've known much longer than I've known him =__=. He also told me that I shouldn't hang around a certain girl I'm friends with because it will ruin my "reputation" . . . no. Just no. I'm going into grade nine. . .I don't even HAVE a "reputation" and besides, I really don't care if I'm not friends with "popular people" because I love my true friends so much and being with them is so much better than all of that. I just feel like Joe's trying to run my life now. . .he told me that he wasn't happy that my dream career choice was a tattoo artist. I do realize it's a VERY stereotyped industry but he wouldn't even listen to why I wanted to do it. He doesn't realize how much skill and patience it takes to do that job and he knows how much I would love to just sit around and draw all day and get paid for it.


Alex wants to run for grade 9 rep in September to "boost his popularity". Also VERY stupid because he said he doesn't want to be "at the bottom of the foodchain" and apparently that's what Otakus are =__='. He said that he isn't going to cosplay either or go to cons because he's scared that he'll see someone he knows and it'll "ruin his reputation". That never really bothered him before when he was planning all of his cosplays for the next year or so with me a few days before the news atom bomb hit.

It sucks. I'm trying to keep the rest of the group together because Austin's supposed to be coming home in a year and I want him to have the same people he left to still be there for him. I guess him leaving was more of a blessing in disguise, I'm figuring out who my true friends are and from that, I'm making decisions based upon that knowledge. Like I know right now that the only ones that are still going to be here for him are, me, his girlfriend Meaghan, our friend Amber, and Derek. And I know that Joe and Alex are most likely going to ditch the group completly and he won't have them as good friends anymore. I don't know how I'm going to deal with this. . .I mean, I love Joe and Alex to death but. . .Alex wants to be popular and Joe. . .he wants to be popular too but I don't want to leave my friends just to be with him and his friends that probably won't even like me. Ugh. . .I wish I had a rock to hide under right about now . . .-__-